im really sorry for everything..

i think, i just cant be with u animore..

i dont want u to suffer in future..

i do love you from the fullest of my heart..

you have been there for me 24/7 since 1 july 2009..

everything change after i got u..

i think more maturedly and stuff..

i am really thankful to have u once in my life..

but now, after some consideration..

i guess, i got to go..

thanks for everything dear..

you have sacrificed alot for me..

i know ur endurance if fully for me but..

i guess, i should consider your future too..

herm..

i know dat everything shudnt happen now..

but before its too late..

its better for me to let u go now..

baby, find someone who can take care of u..

who is healthy and fit..

someone whom u need not endure her fucking attitude..

and someone who is independant enuf and faithful to u..

this one whole year of 2009..

i have been falling ill more den 10 times..

i just dont know y..

one thing i can feel is that..

i cant live long in this wonderful world..

for that, i dont want to take the risk for hurting the person i love..

i know my supervisor and stuff are angry and dissapointed with me..

but what can i do..

this stupid disease had come in me..

herm..

maybe i might not tell anione about my sickness..

not even u baby who i really love..

i have been lying to u all this while i guess..

herm..

dahla..

baby, no cry kae??

be strong like what i am doing..

stay strong and act normal..

haha..

and everyone around me..

one thing..

one favour..

pls, dont ask anything from me..

react normal..

im fine..

im strong..

and.. there is always a make up to cover up my paleness..

haha

so no weri on whether other people will ask u about me or not..

cux only i know what happen..

not even my family..

not even my bestfrens..

not even my bf..

keep this in mind..

im a normal emellia you guys know..

and baby..

you take care..

u will always b in my heart..

always..

~emelliaizat~ for the very last time..

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