{♥} cookie monster
Im Emellia Tang.
Currently Schooling at ite Clementi as a traineeship student in AKLTG
Im 17 born on 1st of March 92
Im a happy go lucky girl who loves outdoor sports..
I love challenges as it makes who I am now..
Im currently in a complicated relationship(:
So , hate me .?
{♥} day of the date
yesterdsay, wen to baby bbq pit or maybe i shud say, team viper bbq @ pasir ris.. i really enjoyed every moment spent with baby and his frens.. oups!! sara and aly!! i owe u 21 standard push up!! hais.. next time kae?? promise.. hehe.. herm.. first wen we reached there, all of us go straight for the food that was cooked by baby's ibu.. haha.. its very nice and i ate both the rice and bee hoon actually.. argh!! fats!! haha.. but baby say, no.. u are not fat baby.. haha.. see, how romantic baby is ryte?? haha.. herm.. played frisbee and that makes us owe 42 push up together la actually.. haha.. was so happy til the time i just need to go home.. baby sent me to the bustop.. and by looking into baby's eyes, i know.. he just wudnt want to let me go home.. hais.. wat to do ryte?? i still got to.. herm.. while returning home, went to whitesand more than words and bought a cookie monster hp accessories that cost me $2.50 for the stupid thing that is made from CHINA! haha.. havent told baby yet about it.. but i know.. once he knew it, he will surely say," why waste money??" haha.. baby is just too thrifty i guess.. haha.. herm.. reach home, eat and rest immediately.. wake up and feel so weak.. feel like vomitting.. and my body temp was so hot.. hais.. dont know y out of sudden.. maybe i just missed my baby alot.. told baby about the feels of vomitting and he told me to just throw out.. but guess wat?? oni 2 msges sent by him and den he MIA.. hais.. his gf here was so sick but he just didnt care.. hais.. dats wen we called it,' honeymoon period over' .. hais.. i decide to went out with hafiz den.. he drove me to macd and we ate.. den he drove with a no destinations in mind towards the geylang bla3 and den proceed to my carpark.. we both are like crazy.. we do stupid stuff as sitting at the back seat and on and off the lights.. haha.. was having much laughter actually.. herm.. every single 10 mins, i will looked at my phone to see any msges from baby but.. it dissapoints me.. hais.. arrived home at 11.20 pm.. scolded by abg and den... text baby im sry for whatever everything.. i went out w/out telling him i meant.. today was a very sickening day for us.. hais.. i just felt dat we shudnt be together anymore but baby, as usual will say nononononono.. herm.. he text me and keep texting.. i knew, all the words he type cames out from his heart.. i was touched but i know dat i need to leave him.. i dont wanna keep on hurting him.. hais.. he asked me y did i stop everything from happening ystd but instead of anwering somthing dat is wat he actually thought of, i answered smething dat hurts him alot.. hais.. y am i so mean?? y do i always hurt his feelings?? y?? y?? hais.. his been doing good to me all this while but i just keep on hurting and hurting him.. hais.. at 3pm is his match.. and at 2 + pm, he called me up and asked.. are you sure u wanna me to let go of u?? do u tink dat it will make me happy?? wont u regret for all this decision u made?? and lastly, he asked.. can we still be frens?? all his questions was answered with a yes except the last questions, i put down the phone straight and cried out loud.. he called me but i rejected and msg him dat, yes, i will still be ur frens.. i know dat he will surely leave me and i guess, its the best for him.. he called me up again and said that he dont mean to said wat he had said/asked.. dats all but i keep on emphasizing to him dat im fine although my heart brokes and my tears was falling down my cheek terribly and told him dat everything is over and its okae.. we put down the phone then.. at 2.35pm, i called him.. i just feel dat he wont do well in this match all becux of this and i thought of wishing him a goodluck but he didnt answered my call, so i text him.. 2.45pm, he called me up.. i cried through and even he did.. i told him, goodluck for this match, give his best for this match.. he replied with a crying tone dat his going to contact me once the match is over.. hais.. baby, i love you alot.. but i know its over.. hais.. i dont wanna let u go but hais.. its for your best.. and congrats for the draw match!! team viper, you did it well! baby, i love you and will always do.. thanks for everything.. im gonna missed you alot..
-emellia hates herself-
♥ cookie monster
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