Monday, June 8, 2009

i dont know whats happening in my life..i just feel like life is unfair..he never think abt how i felt abt whatever his doing but i must think abt it cux i wan us to last long..haish..its hurtful at times wen im the one who had to contct him first and not him..life is totally miserable for me..i cant even pampered myself with him..im sad..but i knw..in order to last long in a relationship, u just got to endure..i know dat he likes joking ard but smtimes, his jokes makes me....................think negative of him..i dont want dat and i had really understand him truly..his frenster and tagged never changed at all since im with him..u know wat my frens said??haish..i never did listen to ppls comment abt u but u did..u see! haish..infront of bby noneh, i might be smiling and sharing all my memories with him but deep in my heart, i just felt like hugging her and cry out loud..i know i got to be strong to undergo the first step of relationship..this is my goal now..to stay with him watever happens..i dont dennied smthg dat he do chge a little aft i sms him dat i hope to have my old hairi bck ystd..he do talk to me nicely, reply my sms and call me all the sweet names..how i wish all this will last forever..but i know dat it wont cux he will surely change one day like ystd, wen he yelled at me cux i text him directly aft putting down the phone..i was hurt..i was really holding back my tears..guys, fyi: i got this phobia that is scoldings from a guy cux last time wen i was little, i saw alot of things happens in my family and dat makes me phobia..i do my best to hold my tears as i knw he will surely said, " sikit2 nangis(x2) tula keje u"..im hurt but i know he didnt mean it..
p/s:bie, i hope my patience will leads us to happiness one day..i really do love u, i really do..i just hope dat u can appreciate me as ur GF and treasure me well..dats all..
♥ cookie monster
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